connotation of words

check out the plot of Charulata and Nastanirh.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charulata
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nastanirh

i am reminded of a conversation in a movie called "abohoman" between father(f) and son(s)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xVp6Aoxt7zA
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f: what is a film all about?
s: depends..moments may be
f: moments..we all catch fleeting moments..capture them.. not fair..not fair at all. [pauses] look at the bluish-grey sky.
s: fog has not cleared yet.
f: that what you just said, blue changed to dull grey.
s: it'll get dark now, lets go
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if we could witness and understand what transpired in between the finite moments that are captured and projected, our perspectives and further the choice of words would change.

in an electrical world, to analyse an analog signal, we sample it. samples would always be finite in number and hence, the signal that we reconstruct from the samples is never the same as original. in the real world, our understanding and sensibilities are a function of our experiences and desires. limited. also, there is no law that can give us an appropriate sampling rate to reconstruct reality.

at this point, i can think of only one word - anekantvada

long way to go

wow..i am beginning to like jogging. this was unexpected. its hard to stay driven if you are the kinds who pants in less than 200m. i can jog longer now but slow. i've started drinking more than 2 litres of water everyday. chosen an area most of which is less crowded and green. is baar no chori

song of the day

aao huzoor tumko sitaaron mein le chalun

thank you

for the kind of people i've met in my life and for the amount of love i've got, i can only say i am plain lucky. if brahma is sitting up there on lotus with questions popping in his head, i want to shout out to him, "good going dude. you doubt, therefore you think, therefore we are" ;)

play

sometimes you want a song to go on and on and never stop. waqt ne kiya kya haseen sitam is one of them

rituparno ghosh

what a beautiful mind. a man with a compassionate heart holding a torch walking in the darkest alleys of human mind and when he shows you a figment of what he has seen, you would be sitting with goosebumps, hugging yourself. in awe. a part of you. shocked. shattered. born again.

the law of the jungle

humans, at large, have long worked on establishing systems that enabled the weak to survive.
today, survival of the fittest is the mantra of life. number crunchers that we have become, we don't mind trampling anyone, if need be/not be. there is section of society which is confused by the choices life has to offer and there is another section which is struggling hard to choose life as an option. in this polarised society, humanity is rapidly fading away. where are we going wrong?

cynicism is at such heights that if A helps B in any way, A is literally worshipped and profusely talked about. looking at it from this perspective, today, benevolence is unnatural and a thing of glory. in other words, it is pretence. i remember when i was a kid, i'd once collected funds for an organisation that claimed to work for the needy. the incentive for me was a medal if i reached a certain target. i drilled a hole into my dad's pocket and bought the medal. when i grew a little wiser, i attended meetings at an NGO, being a part of it, where volunteers discussed their contributions at length and how they enriched others' life. ofcourse, they got thunderous applause.

when the driving idea behind is just to prove a point, it will not serve the purpose in the end. the journey of it being a way of life to becoming a moral obligation to it being nearly extinct, in the history of mankind, is intriguing.

we imitate love. we imitate kindness. we do it because it enriches us.

learning is useful when it is by observation and understanding rather than imposition.

quietude

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one of my favourite songs

not sure what it is.. innocence? luck?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1o0zU640a7M&feature=related

yiiikes

just now a lizard fell off the window pane. there's something about reptiles that makes me squirm. flattened body or the way they move on the floor or the walls or their slithery skin. i dont know what it is.. its just the whole package, i suppose. i am so disgusted by the possibility that we could have evolved from reptiles. i wish i get to like them someday or atleast ignore them.

its not all sugar and rainbow

some experiences fill your heart with so much filth that it gets pumped into your blood and travels up to your brain. it mixes with your tears and clouds your vision. eventually, you wipe it off. after the rain, sun shines and paints the sky with colors.

its paradoxes that put things in perspective giving a better insight into life.

home away from home

sometimes it is and sometimes its not

people

it happens, often and it is always a pleasure. i met a stranger in an elevator and traveled with him on my way back home, for a while. we chatted like we were old buddies. when we had to take different trains, all we said was hope we meet again. we never asked each other's name. we never exchanged our numbers. a good time spent and thats about it.

zoned out

hyperfocus aint a great thing when you have stuff to finish.
time for some tea